Quatre always accused me of hiding my emotions, or even, later, of not having any. I do have emotions, of course. But I don't vocalize them well. Emotions are to be felt, not discussed.
Wufei looks at me, patiently waiting for my answer. Wufei is the most patient of all of us, I think. Duo says that I am, but my seeming patience is actually just a lack of impatience. I don't expect people to make sense, or have answers, or behave rationally, so I'm not disappointed whatever their behavior. Wufei believes that he is doing people an injustice to judge them before they have adequately expressed, defended or explained themselves.
"I…" My sentence dies before it even takes shape inside my mind. How can I explain what happened between me and Duo? How can I tell Wufei how this relationship that began as a repeat of the one with Quatre developed into so much more? How to tell of how Duo had given without taking, how he gave control of himself to me, rather than demanding control of me for himself. How to describe the look in his violet eyes at the moment I realized we weren't involved in a battle for individual control, but instead were helping each other know ourselves by knowing each other - the moment he showed me….
That's it. I feel the corners of my mouth move upwards in an expression that on anyone else would probably be called a grin. Wufei looks startled; it's not often that such an expression crosses my face.
"I love him, 'Fei," I say slowly. "Do you understand?"
Author: Shoori (3x2, 1x3x2) (4x5, 1xR) 125k across three fics
Friends and Lovers: (3x2) Duo has had enough beating around the bush. He asks Trowa if they can move their relationship to another level, but might be surprised by the results!
Living in Sin: (3x2) Duo and Trowa have to come to terms with their friends' reactions to their relationship...and their own reactions.
The Beginning of the End: (3x2, 1x3x2, 4x5) Six years have passed since the end of the Eve Wars, and everyone has settled into their own routines. But one mistake can shatter a bond...and peace may be the most fragile bond of all...
My notes: Trowa and Duo find happiness with each other, but unbeknownst to them, their friend Heero is anything but happy. Misunderstandings lead to infidelity, lead to angst and suffering... and eventually to the boys getting their act together. This fic is full of the angst, whump, first-person POVs, song lyrics and melodrama that are hallmarks of the fandom, as well as non-con and torture while Trowa is a prisoner, but it's engaging, even as it shows its age. What it isn't, however, is Relena friendly, so be warned.